I never have had to be so strong before. I have never had something consume my mind this much. The only thing I think about is that he won't be here, all the things I'll miss. My fiancee joined the Army. He'll be gone for about 6 months or so for basic training and AIT. But it will bring so many good things for us. We'll get married right after he is done with all his training. We'll actually be able to have a wedding. So that's exciting. I love him very much and I have to be as strong as possible for him. I want him to know I support him and that I am happy for him. I really don't want to cry about it. I know at times it will be hard but..hey I've got God on my side. He is the one who can get me through over anyone else. I wrote two poems recently about him going to the army. The one called "Warrior For You," I added a little more to it. He hasn't left yet it'll probably a month or so at most. (but not at all a long time from now and I don't have much time left with him) but we will write each other letters every day. And tell each other everything so it's like we are still there with each other in a way. To any who read this I need some prayers to be strong for him. I'm also trying to find a job. I feel like no one wants me because of my school schedule. My job I'm at now is not enough. I got a paycut and I need something else. Something that I know I can be good at and advance in the job and all that good stuff. I need prayers for that. And I feel like all my schoolwork has just toppled over me. God I need you. Say a prayer for me if you can.